I M Gonna Miss you...

Today I left her at my relative's place.. and Dad is goin to take her back to PKD... its nothing like that I am not gonna get to use her again.. but its been four moths we were together and now suddenly from tomorrow.. i'll be goin to college to on friend's bike till i get my own bike...

Yaar I am not a rich kid.. N my ride was also not an expensive one.. but i love her yaar.. and ek aadat si ho gayi thi... Maintainance was the main problem and I cant take car everywhere for every single work.. Bike is essential in student life...

So now dont know when m I gonna get it back.. but I'll wait..

Where M I "?"

I am really feeling lost... its not just at this instant but its been happening so many times wid me nwadays.. Its not because i dont have nething to do but because i am trying to do so many things at the same time.. not at all concentrating or focusing on one and in the end when i see the result, not a single thing is properly done..

May be my priorities are not decided or even if i know my priorities am not giving them ne importance.. I sometimes think that multiconcentration is a gift and many times its a curse..

I m a dentist, but most of the time m sitting on a computer... in that also i dont have ne extraordinary achievements.. i listen to all kind of music, literally all but not completely devoting to one..

M really feeling useless..

And I am nt even confident whether i'll be able to follow even if i decide nething..

I cant even say i need a change, coz i m not at all doin nething so from what i need a change...

this is a very a gloomy post but i cant help it..

And wen a single negative thought comes into your mind it totally drowns you into negative world.. I know these kind of things dont happen but i really need a miracle in my life..

1 thing that is sure, you really need to make sacrifices to achieve something.. And right now m doin nothing.. but at the same time expecting that things should happen in my way.. howz that possible yaar...

I m not even getting how to end this post.. I can say "Jaane de yaar" as usually and can let the things go.. I can even say " I am goin to try" but rally M I? better way is just to say...

THE END

"Keep in touch"

Keep in touch thats what we say many times at the end of many conversations... n its desi version is "Sale contact me reh"..

To be really honest, m bad at this.. its not intentional from my side.. but ya fault is all mine.. I sometimes think may be its because of my unsocial( m nt sure abt dis word) attitude..

It happend wid me 3 days back when a good frnd of mine ( i dnt frm his side tht he still consideres da same or not) scrapped after such a long time saying that " olakhlas ka mala? (did u recognize me?)" Oviously i had nt forgttn him n it was also not like that i was netless(dis is a new word frm me) but as i said all fault is mine. den he gave me his number saying " i knw u wudnt contact though" .. I told him sorry.. what other option i had?

It was not just in his case but there are many.. i never call up my relatives , i dont go to their places on holydays.. earlier it was ok that i had the excuse that i m not that grown up.. but someday i'll have to accept these responsibilities may be just as a formality.. but that little formality makes other happy and it does not require any great effort... it just takes lil time to call some1 and talk and lil more to meet them...

and its not at all like that i really dont have time for all dis...

whatever it may be.. but i m really sorry for all dis..


I fear that wht if it happens wid me that because of my dis attitude someday they will not at all expect me contacting them .. and will totally forget me..

It has already started hapening,
There is a good frnd of mine at my place.. she has stopd callin me n messagin me bcoz i nevr replied ne of her msgs.. i dont knw what will she say when i'll contact her.. nw i want to but m lil scared..

I dont know whether i'll change or not but i'll surely try..

So yaar please Keep in touch...

"Main Bahot Khush Hu Today"

Ya m really very happy today or i can say right at this moment wen m writing this m feeling tht bubbling happiness inside me.. reason for it is something i really cant mention here..
I know no one except my friends, read this blog but still i cant mention it here..

Something happened.. about which i had almost lost my hopes.. something for which i was really waiting.. n today it happened..

For many it may be a small thing but ya for me its something big..



So lets hope jo hua hai, will continue acchese in future..( coz not used to such things happenin wid me)...