Music my life

Whenever i listen to ne kind of good music i just start floating on it.. the melody, the words affect deeply..

I m a versatile listener, means right from altaf raja to jagjit singh whatevr tht is good, i listen to it.. language has never been a barrier for good music.. thts wher the magic is.

and then sometimes a regret pops up tht why cant i create nething.. but now thers no time left for it and all opportunities are lost.. may be in future i'll try.

But m satisfied that atleast m a good listner and thts the gift i hav recieved from dad.. he too has big versatile collection.

Whenevr i meet ne of my dad's collegemate, dad is remembrd for his mastery on harmonium and craving for good music.. i cudnt create such impression though i alws wanted to.. I can just lie to myself by saying Every1 cant b good everything.. I too dnt knw wht m i good at..

I love listening and may be m good at it.. everyone likes my collection of songs..

tht is all i hav and i will try hard to maintain it..

Weekends

Wen m writing this, there are only 2 hrs left for next day... Tht next Day is Weekday..

I really hate sunday evening.. coz the next day is about to come and u realize that so many things hav been left to be done..

Wht did i do dis wknd? dis has only the usual answer as 'Nothing'..

Saturday is a half day.. so got bak from hospital at 1.. had my lunch, watched a movie and den slept.. got up at 10. and den as usual saturday night party.. Me and my Co-PG Swaroop.. and Again two movies and den slept at 3..

Got up early in da morning means at 8 but den was nt getting what to do so watched a movie, had my breakfast and wen i was finished wid all dis suddenly i realised that its 3 in da afternoon so again, time for sleep, and den got up at 8.30..

and i dont remember wht i did for last one and a half hour, coz i didnt do nething significant.. so that was it .. weekend is over. just like so many other weekends that i hav wasted.

Its been too long...

No m really not goin to start wid my old crap.. tht i was really busy so cudnt write nething and blah blah.. but seriously I was..

Its been too long tht I hav talkd to my dearest friends.. tht doesnt mean manya is not one of them.. M may be bein lil senti.

but had nt talkd to maddy since so so long.. to Arpit also.. had talk wid him for HD ka thing but jst for that.. and even anya too.. Sorry had nt talkd to suyog also..

may be everyone's real busy .. mail chains hav also drownd somewhere.. means its nothing like that surroundings have changed but suddenly a gap has appeared.. And I fear it should nt convert fship into just a formality.. Or has it?

I am also resposnsible or I m only responsible for wht I m cryin.. but dnt knw wht wil be next step?

Since after my ulcer attack.. everything around me has become shiny and bright and enjoyable.. means as I had already claimed tht 2k9 is mine .. all the positive energy is flowing around me.. its nt like tht all the problems are solved but atleast m facing all the problems instead of running from them..

so lets see how long it goes...

but in all dis something m really missin.. something thts everything..

was plannin to go to Mumbai dis weeknd but nt possible nw.. hav so many excuses..

so dis is the thing..

Peace...

DCH

I hav really lost the count , How many times i hav watched dis movie and Its still goin on in the background when m writing dis post..

Dis film is nothing less dan a magical creation by Farhan Akhtar.. means aftr dis I hav becom die hard fan of him.

I still remember the first time we all watchd DCH in theatre.. Most of the guys in my grp wer der and we all got too much involved in dat.. Means i wont say tht it affectd our Fship but it surely influenced alot.. Means we all found some part of ourselves and also of our Group in Samir, Siddh and Aakash and their Fship..

Girls, parents, fights, misunderstandings, egos etc etc so so many things potrayed there are found in our life..

Why did we plan our first big trip to Goa? Why tht urge visit the same fort?( dnt worry i will not reveal our secret)By no means we wer trying to imitate the things dat they did, but the all the time when we wer in Goa tht DCH feeling was der..

Lovin older girls, dominating girls, fighting for girls, flirting, serious proposals, falling in love wid every girl u meet and then agian falling on face each and every time.. all dis has been happenin wid us..

Dis group thing has come a long way since den.. We decide every time tht thers's no such thing as group and we find only our public arnd ourselves for everythin.. Let it be its a differnt topic..

Neways I wil watch dis movie 1nce agn..

Smwhere I Belong....

NY, LA, PENN, etc etc You just throw these names in public n atleast u'll get a glance from ur nearby public which is oderwise least botherd abt u..

Means I too hail from a place which is called as PKD aka Pandharkawada, Or YTL( Yavatmal)and the most famous atleast in dis flock is NGP i.e. Nagpur.. But who is bothered..

Saw anya's NY pics, read his post and thought ke yaar kitna sahi hai.. Kabhi to ye sab dekhna hai..

Seriously yaar these are all developed countries,,

but when you see from a tourism's point of view India is also not behind.. Incredible India, Atulya Bharat..
We hav everythin except developement., but because of dis lack of developemnt some natural beauty spots are still virgin, coz Indian public is really uncontrollable.. Means dey hav dat born ability to ruin nething thts worth preserving ( Especially Gujju public)

Its my dream to once travel All da places in India, means u find something amazing at each and every place..
I want to go to East,Northmost, South and even Central India,,

though we get excited by lookin at dis foreign cities but How many of us hav seen atleast 25% of India..

M nt being too Ideal tht I dnt want to see dis fascinating foreign places but It will be not right on my part If I miss something which is in my home..

Jai ho...

Coming soon...

Mostly my posts are nothing but flow of my emotions.. I write wenevr I m sufferin thru a sudden Emosional Attack.. My last post is also like that..

Emotions start flowing under da influence of Music, Movie or a Call and All of the mentioned things take place When I m under influence of Somrthing else( No need to Mention )

Tomorow ther r chances tht Ke we might party at my place.. So rt nw only M warning all the few sufferers who read my blog that a New post is goin to come soon.. So Beware..

Neways I sometimes regret that whtevr I wrote at tht time might not be the right thing.. For ex. I thought once, of deleting my last post.. but den I didnt, coz its my blog ( N very few read it) So no tension rt nw..

Peace...

Unfortunate

Where did I go Wrong? What was was my mistake? Did I fall shaort newhwere? No I seriosly I didnt.. I didnt..

Many Wont understand dis but I did what was to be done.. the option that was best for my love though may the worst for me but I sacrificed..

I dont want to claim tht I am da first one to do dis or i did the greatest thing but I know one thing for sure tht I did something tht I wont be able to forget so easily... Its gonna stay wid me

But right nw I really dnt knw nething.. but I m desparately frustrated... I just believed in 1 thing which I dnt knw is true or right or not but I just said "Tum jaha bhi raho (though not wid me) bass khush raho"

bye tc...

Saturady Night...Sunday Morning...

Got up late today.. reason was quite obvious, Saturday Night Party.. To be really honest what we(Most of the time me and Swarup only) do on saturday nights cant be called as party.. *****,Songs, Movies and sometimes a lil bit of Dancing also.. We call it as a "Program"

So now will have my lunch.. Right now not getting what to do so m writing dis post..

But On Sundays i really guilty that i did waste my only off day in a week.. Coz I get up late and den after having lunch I again go to sleep.. by the time i get up after noon nap, its already evening and den lil bit of time pass here and der. and den lunch and den again the most important part of life dat is "Aaram"

Means can you imagine, tht u have slogged for the whole week and den U get dis day off and U really want to enjoy it..

Its nothig like that i dont work when i am in clinics.. I do work a lot but after comin back I seriously do nothing.. means I just sleep, eat and do anything except studies.. So for me after college the remaining day is sunday.. and thts may be the reason I feel guilty on Sundays.. Coz I dont deserve it..

Let it be.. Only thing I can say , I wont waste dis sunday.. bye tc Happy weekend

Gym Mania....

M really finding it difficult to write this post coz upper body is aching like nething.. M sorry but I m nt remebering the word for " Akadna" Yes yaar pura akad gaya hu..

Left tricep( to be more specific) is the area of chief complaint..

but they say it happens during intial few days after joining Gym...

To be really honest its my fourth attempt.. before dis I hav tried for 3 times and somehow was not able to continue due to some unmentionable circumstances... but dis time i wont stop...

I know it was my third day only but hav decided to continue for long(I was about to write forever but tht wud had been lil exaggerating)

I hav started wid light weights and lil cycling( for 3-4 km) and mainly concentrating on abdomen muscles coz thts the main area of concern..

Have plans to develope atleast 10 packs( atleast bol to sakta hu) Lets see kitne bante hai..

So dis is all about my Gym mania.. So wish me luck ...

ps: Public has already started calling me as Salman and etc etc.. I can understand their feelings...

Scribbling....

Hello how are you everybawdy...? wont repeat the same old starting line tht " It's been really long tht I hav written nething.."

Feeling good right now.. seriously.. I hav mastered the art of passing time.. means You should see how efficiently I can do timepass widout doin nething fruitfull.. may be it has become my habbit...

Right now am really not in the mood to curse myself for nething...

So was on Yahoo chat for some time.. obviously i was using my fake id.. first to make it clear that I really dont like chatting for the only one reason that I never can find a real girl of suitable age in those hundreds of chat rooms...

Means I accept my failure... but still out of desparation and most importantly free time, i thought i'll try and in the end just after 15 min. I fell down to my old conclusion...

Just completed a new game on psp that i bought 4 days back... i didnt expect i'll finish it off so soon.. now will try at lil harder levels.. Dragon ball Z Shin Budokai is the game.. before that completed NFS Carbon... now for some days not in a condition to buy new game.. Psp games are really expensive..

Nothing else.. Only 2-3 gb space is left on my 750 gb HD .. so now will haveto plan for a new one..
M thinking of sendin my desktop back to my place i.e. PKD.. coz its the biggest distraction and it right now occupyin all the space of my study table.. and I want to use my Laptop ...

for now only dis much.. milte hai.. JAI HO...

May be not the Best...

I Listen to the song Yesterday by Beatles and i get lost in my past... Great song and Greatly sung...

I surely deserve something good may be not the best.. and this time I am damn sure I am goin to get it..
Means I am not gonna be waiting for things to happen but M gonna try

Seriously yaar

2kNine is Mine...

Its really been very long since i hav written nething ... net connection was down and so many other factors wer der out of that one important is my lazyness..
As soon as i got on da main page i directly opened a new post and started writing or else i wud had chkd wht every1 else has written and wud had given up in da end...

So those who even by mistake check my orkut account will notice the title "2kNine is Mine" seriously yaar 2009 is my year..
Nothing special has happend wid me but i am getting that gut feeling that something's surely good is goin to happen in dis year or may be i can say many good things are goin to happen..

My guide resigned.. I was down for 2-3 days but to be really serious its nothing like that as ususal bad things are not happening but somehow i am able to find a positive side in each of those situations.. and to be really frank god(good) things are happening.. All are just small incidences but i am able to find happiness in those...

So I am really not hoping instead I am Confident that 2kNine is Mine....

Time goes on...

Its really been very long tht I hav wriiten neting.. But it was not because of unavailability of free time but because of Net problems..

So here M again scriblin something about me and myself who else??( Kahi to bhi suna hua hai )

Wil start from Diwali Holidays.. Diwali was nothing but Aaram, movies, hogging and sleeping.. but thts what we are supposd to do in holidays.. So watched 9 movies in three days and the best thing about hollywood movies is that maximum 2hrs.. bass in that much time only they make u realise how superior they are in film makin.. wont write the reviews of movies...

After comin back to nagpur on very next day of Laxmipujan( as mom n dad wer leavin for Andaman trip from nagpur..) dropped mom n dad and mamas n mamis to the station and after that I was a free soul.. First Yogi n Arpit and then Mandar left for their places.. B4 leavin Me, Maddy, Manya and Rohan(we met him at the airprt surprisingly or better to say accidently)had a dinner at Bablu's Dhaba.. all good and bad old things wer dug out and again burried ther only.. We often discuss Useless and fruitless topics.. but thats what the fun is..

Den wen Manya left(had gone to drop him at the station) I knew for next few months m gonna be alone in Nagpur.. wish they all cud hav stayd for little more while.. but.. dis 'but' at the end of every wish, imagination and dream kills them..

So the daily routine began.. and still goin on will go on..

Guys naya flat dhunda hai.. its near to the old one .. hav not yet shifted but will go der from 1st

Dis comin week m lil busy.. Goin to Chandigarh for conference.. wil enjoy a lot der.. means atlest will try coz our guides are also goin to be der so dont know..

Had long and great chat wid anya yday.. Felt good.. was down bcoz of few reasons..

So thats how the Time goes on...

I M Gonna Miss you...

Today I left her at my relative's place.. and Dad is goin to take her back to PKD... its nothing like that I am not gonna get to use her again.. but its been four moths we were together and now suddenly from tomorrow.. i'll be goin to college to on friend's bike till i get my own bike...

Yaar I am not a rich kid.. N my ride was also not an expensive one.. but i love her yaar.. and ek aadat si ho gayi thi... Maintainance was the main problem and I cant take car everywhere for every single work.. Bike is essential in student life...

So now dont know when m I gonna get it back.. but I'll wait..

Where M I "?"

I am really feeling lost... its not just at this instant but its been happening so many times wid me nwadays.. Its not because i dont have nething to do but because i am trying to do so many things at the same time.. not at all concentrating or focusing on one and in the end when i see the result, not a single thing is properly done..

May be my priorities are not decided or even if i know my priorities am not giving them ne importance.. I sometimes think that multiconcentration is a gift and many times its a curse..

I m a dentist, but most of the time m sitting on a computer... in that also i dont have ne extraordinary achievements.. i listen to all kind of music, literally all but not completely devoting to one..

M really feeling useless..

And I am nt even confident whether i'll be able to follow even if i decide nething..

I cant even say i need a change, coz i m not at all doin nething so from what i need a change...

this is a very a gloomy post but i cant help it..

And wen a single negative thought comes into your mind it totally drowns you into negative world.. I know these kind of things dont happen but i really need a miracle in my life..

1 thing that is sure, you really need to make sacrifices to achieve something.. And right now m doin nothing.. but at the same time expecting that things should happen in my way.. howz that possible yaar...

I m not even getting how to end this post.. I can say "Jaane de yaar" as usually and can let the things go.. I can even say " I am goin to try" but rally M I? better way is just to say...

THE END

"Keep in touch"

Keep in touch thats what we say many times at the end of many conversations... n its desi version is "Sale contact me reh"..

To be really honest, m bad at this.. its not intentional from my side.. but ya fault is all mine.. I sometimes think may be its because of my unsocial( m nt sure abt dis word) attitude..

It happend wid me 3 days back when a good frnd of mine ( i dnt frm his side tht he still consideres da same or not) scrapped after such a long time saying that " olakhlas ka mala? (did u recognize me?)" Oviously i had nt forgttn him n it was also not like that i was netless(dis is a new word frm me) but as i said all fault is mine. den he gave me his number saying " i knw u wudnt contact though" .. I told him sorry.. what other option i had?

It was not just in his case but there are many.. i never call up my relatives , i dont go to their places on holydays.. earlier it was ok that i had the excuse that i m not that grown up.. but someday i'll have to accept these responsibilities may be just as a formality.. but that little formality makes other happy and it does not require any great effort... it just takes lil time to call some1 and talk and lil more to meet them...

and its not at all like that i really dont have time for all dis...

whatever it may be.. but i m really sorry for all dis..


I fear that wht if it happens wid me that because of my dis attitude someday they will not at all expect me contacting them .. and will totally forget me..

It has already started hapening,
There is a good frnd of mine at my place.. she has stopd callin me n messagin me bcoz i nevr replied ne of her msgs.. i dont knw what will she say when i'll contact her.. nw i want to but m lil scared..

I dont know whether i'll change or not but i'll surely try..

So yaar please Keep in touch...

"Bommarillu - Love Makes Life Beautiful"

For this movie i or infact we i.e. Me n Manya were waiting for so many days.. had heard so much abt it from arpit.. but didnt get the chance... but day b4 yday wen anya also said tht its a good movie den to final hi ho gaya tht i m goin to watch dis movie.. We fixed the plan and yday night, watched dis movie..

Really a good movie, Jo kucch suna tha wo sahi tha, subtitles wer der but nahi bhi rehte to i wud hav not matterd alot..
Siddhartha, Jaiprakash, Jayasudha are really good.. baki bhi acchhe the and Genelia to apni fevarite hi hai.. apart from acting Music by Devi Sri Prasad is also superb.. Appuddo Ippuddo is my fav. song in dis movie..

Movies like Arya, Bommarillu seriously show that language is never a barrier to express your emotions..

After watching movie main bahot khush tha.. Jo hamesha acchhi movie dekhne baad hota hai with me.. Wont write the whole plot but the main thing is like Its true that they have shown a dominating father but at the same time Hero bhi sun leta thts why all da problems wer der.. and beside dis father son relationship i liked hero's lovestory.. Anya i m also feelin the same..

Neways its really a good movie...

"Reincarnated"

It was very well said by some sant mahatma tht wenevr my net connection will come back my first blog will be on how i lived widout it and the title was suggested by him only.
So guys am back.. this also could hav been my title but its alresdy used and 'Reincarnated' is really what i felt wen my net connection started.
It was like 12 long days i was widout broadband connection on my desktop... ya but still i was trying to be in touch wid others using world's most frustrating service i.e. Airtel gprs ( company says tht its EDGE, i dnt knw wher's tht edge is lost)..

I was telling Upkar and Manya tht Google ke logo ka pic deewar pe lagake uski pooja ki ja sakti hai.. coz its like whtever u want u'll get it.. n neways Knowledge is God yaar.. for nething Google is ther..

I also got my Laptop back.. so thoda luck acchha chal raha hai, i can say( sala nazar na lag jaye)..

In all its good..

" Dil Chahta Hai"

A Fuckin Awesome movie…

Downloaded it.. wid all da lights off and headphones on I watched the movie widout a single forward,

Thts a big thing for me , watching movie widout forward( Manya knows better) Last one was August Rush..

After so so many days Koi acchhi Hindi movie dekhne mili..

I m da kind of guy who gets excited or involved or get senti wenevr I watch Music related movies and Fship movies( U rarely get dis kind of films in Hindi) and here wid dis both the things were der..

Farhaan has done a good job.. Even Arjun, Poorab(I likd his part) an Luke.. A balanced direction by Abhishek Kapoor.. and a very good story by him only..

4/5 from my side..

Because of Farhan Akhtar, initially I too was comparing( though unintentionally) dis movie wid DCH.. but DCH is a miracle.. dis is also a good movie..

So guys while watching da first part my thoughts started flowing as usually.. I was sort of imaginig that Kya hota agar apna bhi ek band hota.. or a better imagination is Wht if its like after settling down we are formin a band.. Just for our sake .. just for our Love for Music.. but at evry imagination’s end der is one big BUT.. n it alwz remains as a dream…

So whatever it may be der one famous saying that “Man can do whtever he can imagine”..

At da end only 1 thing remained.movie name. “Rock On”

M Back...

After a long break, i am writing a new post..
its nothing like that i was too busy but nahi hua..
So m back .. back from my native's place(PKD aka Pandharkawda)
Bachpan me(ya u might think i was lil retarded) wenever i used see pkd(which is for Packed) on nething i used to think that my place's name is ther on everything.. i used to feel good..
But whenevr I say I m basically frm PKD.. it sounds cool smthing like " I m frm LA n I m frm NY".

So i went der yday n came bak 2day.. a very short trip.. but Ghar pe rehke acchha lagta hai..

Its a real nice place.. earilier wen i was in 11th-12th and in first yr of my graduation wenevr sm1 used to ask wher r u frm? i used to tell them tht i m frm Nagpur .. i was lil shy to tell my place's name.. coz i was afraid that they might think tht i m a village boy.. but nw i m nt..

There are some amazing things abt dis place...

The name of da river tht flows frm here is "Khooni Nadi". Exact history of dis name i dnt knw but they say tht every year it kills somebody thts why da name.. logically dis happens wid every river but still..

As my dad says tht if u can drive in PKD u can drive newhere n i too hav experienced dis.. Traffic sense at my place is smthing more beyond than nonsense.. I used to think tht My car shd had two hands to push the public (who widout any concern are standin in da middle of da road n discussing) to side to clear da road.. N horns are jst for formality..
U get da freedom to park ur vehicle newhere, literaly newhere.. u can stop netime while driving.. its such a freedom u get here..

Now at my place R.T.O. stands for 'RikamTekde Officers' ... means these people they know da real art of living... its their developed skill tht they pass n amount of time literally doin nothin.. I myself hav heard dem discussin abt Bush n Clinton n world economy... Such intelluctual public is at my place.. I smtimes think tht Bush might be taking their advice secretly n Laden also..

So so many things are der which make dis place so Unique..

but whtevr it may be its developing real fast. after completion of my post graduation i m goin to go der as a consulting endodontist twice in a week..
Whtevr they do but they are really enjoyin der Life n which is dificult to find in cities..

Jai Pandharkawda...